Andrea Johns Blog ~ NewLifeMiracles
God, you're leading me. With confidence I face my day. Every duty and interruption are appointments you've sent my way.
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health update
My doctor appointments are over for this week anyway. I had put off going to the doctor and I knew it was time to go.
I went to the Gastrologist yesterday. I am not an expert of Crohn's disease but I have done enough studying to know when you must see the doctor. There is no cure for this disease. They can put you on medication but it does not cure the disease it just helps with some of the symptoms but then you have to deal with the side affects of the medicine. I choose to deal with the side affects that I know about rather than to deal with new ones.
I could bore you with the nasty details but I won't. But what I will say is that I am in pain all the time. I am getting shingles on my hands constantly (the Cardiologist even asked me about my hand today). I am getting sores all over my body. My immune symptom is playing havotic with me.
In 2006 they found a stricture in my colon during a colonscopy. A stricture is one of the causes of an obstruction. Your colon narrows until it shuts off completely. They put a balloon in me than and stretched out the area. But my all appearances I am suffering from this again. The doctor even suspects another stricture on my left side. I thought man how many of these "strictures" can I get?
I am scheduled for an colonscopy next Wednesday (No church for me that night). Terry is taking off work to take me. I'm glad he will be there. The actually test isn't bad. You are knocked out and don't even know what they are doing and where they are doing it at. In the past it was the prep that was so bad. They have a new prep system this time. We will hope it will be better.
I saw my heart doctor today. Good news. By all appearances no changes to the heart. He did some blood work because the Crohn's can affect your heart as well. Most of you probably don't know this but Crohn's can effect your entire body in one way or another. He wants me to do a sleep study. I need one. He said my sleeping habits could be affecting my heart at night and that could be some of the cause of me sleep walking.
I feel relived. One draw back. I need to cut back on my coffee. I know this but I hate it. I love coffee. I am going to go back to half and half in the afternoon. We will try this first and see if it helps.
I woke up the other night soaking wet. The menopause thing. I know these changes can affect your heart. I think the popsicles in the middle of the night helps
. And last but not least my own stress and anxiety from just life. I refuse to take a pill everyday to calm me down. I may take one occasionally when I am desperate but otherwise I'm not. Me and pills just don't get along.
I want God to be my ALL.
He is the only "pill" I need.
what is blogging?
Definition for blog: a Web site that contains an online personal journal with reflections, comments, and often hyperlinks provided by the writer; also : the contents of such a site
There is a difference between a website that you have for your business, hobbies, or church versus having a blog. A blog is a place for you to put your thoughts and your interests. It is a place to put what is on your mind. It's a safe place or it should be.
When you start attacking others freedom to voice their opinions than you are doing exactly what you are criticizing them of doing.
Blogging is not teaching, it is not a sermon.
Blogging does not make you correct by no means.
That is why they call it opinions.
I just love how people talk out of both sides of their mouth and they do it in the Name of God. A bit harsh perhaps but it is done everyday.
Get the speck out of your own eye before you try to get the speck out of mine.
I hear a lot of things daily I don't agree with. Do I argue, do I make them feel bad? No. I listen. There is a place for all things.
Terry and I have both been just a wee bit aggravated this week.
Can you tell?
Our fellow christians are jumping on their high-horse's.
I don't just say this but I mean it all humility....
I am the least of all.
Nothing I could ever do or not do qualifies me to be a Child of King. It is His dying on that Cross that makes me worthy to spend eternity with Him.
Everyone that has a opinion believes that their opinion is the right opinion it seems. Kinda sad. No one is 100% right in everything.
It's a good thing I don't follow man because I would have given up on God a long time ago.
just close your eyes
I was going to tell you to close your eyes and imagine what I am fixing to say but than you couldn't read could you? Do the best you can....
Your sitting in your regular church pew. The one that no one else better sit in. Anyway, you are looking around your church and what would you see?
You would see those people who always have something to say to their neighbor. You know the comment that can't wait.
You would also see those dozing off.
The one's with their arms crossed in front of them.
Nothing could make them worship.
Let's not forget the one's that have done their duty by just showing up.
Depending on where you live, the demonic will always make a appearance as well.
There are those other people who are so up tight they would squeak if they moved.
Church is predictable.
And we all know it.
But why?
I think the above explains it all.
Most of us aren't serious about stepping up and stepping out.
We are making to heaven and that's all that matters.
We get a small thrill up our leg and we are estastic. Boy God really did something today didn't He? Most of us just don't have a clue.
I'm tired of all the game playing.
Aren't you?
There is so much more out there for us.
It is just ours for the asking.
John Fenn
I'm intrigued by what John Fenn has to say. I was introduced to him this week on the Sid Roth show. This man does have a book that I will be buying soon.
How hungry are we?
why are you at church?
We both started out annoyed this morning. It's not a good way to start church morning. We weren't annoyed with each other but we were annoyed with aspects of "the church".
Church is what it is. It seems to be more of a social gathering than a miracle machine.
I want to surround myself with hunger, adventurous, don't care to wade in the deep, radical people for Christ.
Church has become mundane.
You know what to expect.
Sad.
99.9% of people leave church the way they came into it.
True?
When was the last time you saw Jesus manifest Himself?
Have you ever seen Jesus manifest Himself in some way?
It does happen.
I can close my eyes and tell you what is next in a service. Not just where I am going right now but most places of worship. They are predictable. How could Jesus get a Word in even if He wanted to? Our services are too structured to allow the Spirit to move. This is our fault, not HIS.
Your church will never move any higher than the man in charge. His capabilities are the limit. He can't teach you anymore than he knows. It is why you must reach out and listen to other ministries. I would be in sad shape if I had only listened to the pastor where I was going to church. There is loads of ministers who have a fresh powerful Word from God. It all depends on how hungry you truly are.
Your salvation is your responsibility. When you are standing in front of your Creator, you won't be able to blame anyone else but yourself for your actions. It won't be your pastors fault but it will be yours.
Though I love my friends, I'm not at church to see you.
I'm at church to come face to face with God.
Why are you at church?
we had a visitor
Colton brought Daelynn over last night. What a good way to top off a great b-day!
Daelynn stayed with Gigi and Poppy. Terry loves that little girl. He is so tender with her. Really he is that way with all the little one's. It is a side of him I am not use to seeing.
Clay/Karen and Julie/Joseph came by last night to see the baby. She just smiles when you talk to her. You know she doesn't know what you are saying but boy she sure does love it.
Daelynn kept us up most the night. She wants to be held and she wants to sleep with you. What joy it is to have her here but you are tired when she goes home.
Terry took a long afternoon nap. You know me, just a cat nap. But we both went to bed with the chickens. We were tuckered.
We both can't wait till the next visit...
my birthday wishes
I've gotten hooked on some new Newsboys songs. I need to buy the cd; instead I've just been going to youtube and listening to them. The songs get me rived up
. Today is another birthday.
When I was a child I thought surely Jesus would be back before the year 2000 and here we are into 2010. Boy was I wrong.
I miss Brett more on this day than any other day of the year. Today was and is our day. Though I miss him, it isn't overwhelming for me like it was years ago. Time has a way of healing your wounds.
I received some great cards from friends and family.
I even got a few of gifts. I got lots of b-day wishes from FB too.
I felt very loved and appreciated today.
You should feel loved on this day.
You should feel loved everyday.
moving forward
Through the years Terry and I have received many Words from God. There is a Calling on Terry's life and I know these words were being spoken to propel him into his destiny.
At church Sunday (several different times) God told me that a Word was coming. I keep waiting for it but it never came. I thought I had missed God but I hadn't.
Terry and I got to the car and he told a Word was given to him about our ministry during the worship. We (I) received the Word but God gave it to Terry and not to me. I was excited because I knew it was from God because He told me it was coming. I had a confirmation that it was God.
I put events such as this in my hardback journal. It helps to look back and be encouraged.
Terry has been different this week. He is excited about what God wants to do with him. But what aggravates me the most is he already knows this. He didn't need this new Word but God knew he did.
Before the altar call at the end of the service Sunday, I saw what I know is an angel. I wondered why I saw it and I knew something was coming. In the very spot I saw the angel is where God was moving. They knew they were being touched but they did not know that God's very Glory was in the House right there beside them.
Though I knew this was coming, why did God want me to know? The process of learning gets tiresome sometimes. Maybe if I was just a quicker learner, I would already understand somethings.
It's good to get your mind off your troubles and put your mind on Him. It makes your troubles seem smaller....
I'm ready for the next chapter
Ten days since last entry.
Wow!
That has never happened before.
I can't say some of my troubles have gone away. I think I needed to just regroup. I do believe my problems have been a distraction from what God has at hand.
Do you ever get mad at yourself because you continue to do or think something that doesn't line up? You can't blame anyone but yourself. I want to stop the way my brain works sometimes. Just stop I tell myself. Habits are hard to break.
I'm learning moving into my forties that you care less what others think of you. I want to continue to grow in this area. WE hold ourselves back. It isn't God holding us back.
I've cried lots this past month. What a crybaby I've become. It's that victim mentality coming through. Do I have control at least over myself? YES.
True I can't change everything in my life at the moment but I have a great husband who loves me and supports me. He knows me and he understands my pain.
I decided to get my head out of the sand today. It was my status this morning on FB. I know I have decisions to make and things I must not tolerate in my space. My children are a sensitive spot for me. But their lives are moving on. So shouldn't mine?
OK.....I'm ready for the next chapter.
It's going to be good
God is faithful
It's been an conscious decision not to write this week.
I journal, its what I do. I love to write about my life, my thoughts, my God. I would probably write even if no one read it. I've wanted a new direction but unsure of what step to take next.
My head has been spinning from issues with the children and uncertainty in other areas. I have been unsure as to whether to share it online on or not. I'm not bashful just withdrawn. I need to get my mind around what is happening in the lives of those I love before I can write about it. And than I am still uncertain if I will be writing about it all.
It is a strange place to be....not knowing what to do next. But God is faithful.
